One of my biggest downfalls is keeping up with myself; staying consistent with my weight and dieting, also managing my time so that I can do what I want to do for ME!
It becomes so hard for me sometimes. I start off good and then just start slacking. If I miss one day at the gym, then more excuses start to follow and then I never make it. I have been paying $53 a month for a gym membership however haven't seen the gym in months, SMH!! Just sad! I have bought planners to keep organized, wrote down schedules for the way my days/ weeks should go, but nothing helped.
I'm lacking self control.
I told myself that once I came back from vacation last month I would stop drinking alcohol, GO TO THE GYM, stay on top of my schoolwork and finish my website. Tuh! NOTHING on that list has been done. I mean I am on top of my school work, Thank God! But My website (even though up and running) isn't complete because I have had a complete creative block. I want to do so much to give my site audience but I started feeling lost when coming on here. I was looking at the site so much it made me want to change the whole template all over again(which I ended up doing), its really hard when you have a vision and can't find a way to express it the way you would like. The site is coming along but its just taking a little longer than expected.
As for the gym, I have slacked because I started school and wanted my body to adjust to that schedule, and fit the gym in between school work and weekly catering orders. I am definitely going to get in the gym next week. Even if its for 2 days. I feel myself getting FATTER AND FATTER. From vacation binging to cupcakes to the Super Bowl treats, all I've been doing is eating and drinking. Food is so GOOD, I not only love creating it but I love eating as well. I am too short to be this heavy though, well at least for my liking. I am not yet ready to buy over a new wardrobe so I need to get it together! Diet and exercise go hand in hand so I think I'll start writing out my diet plan. Maybe I just start lent early and cut out meat, liquor and starch (which is what I cut out every year) from now. Or at least work my way into it. The diet plan may help me because my problem is not that I eat a lot, because I don't, it is the things I eat and the times I eat it. I've gone days where I would be so busy that I forget to eat and then night time comes and starvation takes me. By the time I'm done eating I really just want to shower and sleep. It is the life I have come accustomed to.
My main goal for this year is to work on ME. When I look good, I feel good and when I feel good my life seems to be in order. Theres just a different air surrounding you when you feel at your best, when you step outside with your skin looking good, nice outfit on and your body just right or at least close to what you want to look like. That Confidence right there is everything, it exudes positive energy, attracts positive people and allows the things you're doing in your life to flow the way they should. I know for me it does.
Letter to myself:
Dear Simone,
I know you've been struggling with some life changes but lets start here. Here is a list of goals for you to start with. Take your time accomplishing them but make sure you DO THEM ALL. Some of these goals may seem too big to reach now, its okay, work towards it and your vision will come to life. Make sure you do not overwhelm yourself so that you start making excuses again. Everyday is a new start of life. Wake up and pray and lets check these GOALS off the list!
GOALS
- Look your best at ALL times; EXERCISE even if its crunches in your bed, EAT CLEAN so that when you have a "cheat day" you wont feel too guilty (lol).
TRAVEL A LOT; See the beauties of the world and EAT from every cuisine possible.
Work on building your FRIENDSHIPS; Sometimes you let life takeover and become distant from those close to you, I know its not on purpose and theres no love lost but it happens. Do better in COMMUNICATING.
Build a strong NETWORK; You've always dreamed of a network of strong business minded individuals around you that you all can build and LIVE a life you don't need a vacation from. WORK towards it.
Stay on top of your SCHOOLWORK; put your all into it so that you achieve STRAIGHT A'S
Last but not least STAY CONSISTENT; Start small even if its drinking a cup of tea every morning and keep creating tasks weekly/ monthly that require consistency.
YOU CAN DO IT!
Best Wishes,
Simone J.